Saturday, June 27, 2009

trying times

So, this is what they meant by CPE..............

For the uninitiated, it is a rite of passage for most Seminarians called Clinical Pastoral Education. It is a time where Seminarians go (uninvited) into hospital rooms, institutions, assisted living facilitates, etc. and provide pastoral care to the people who happen to be at these places. I can only say one thing..........wow.

Some visits have been very congenial here's a typical one- How are you! Oh that's great! Did you have a nice breakfast? Oh, Im sorry......, Did you sleep well? Oh again Im sorry, no I guess I wouldn't have either....

After these nice little chit chats, I find that I am getting more comfortable with asking about the Spirit and how their soul is doing. With these questions come amazing stories and revelations. Stories come that, frankly, you would rather not hear. I have had people ask for my advice on subjects that were uncomfortable ranging from infidelity to the sanctity of life. It was interesting because these folks wanted answers and I felt completely unable to answer their question. But, I did what I was told and put it back on them- A few well placed "tell me more" and "what do you think" and consultations if necessary. But, this does seem a bit hollow and wimpy. I felt like I had to solve the situation as the wise sage on the hill, but I guess these situations are not about me and my needs. It is about their need to have someone who cares and will listen to their problems.

This is the hard part, letting go of your needs and being what they need.